7 Weeks.

Sweet Blueberry.

Our Journey to get here has been a crazy one, we really (I mean me), am a planner, I have it all worked out in my head how its going to be and when its going to happen. So we started on this "lets have a baby train" and I full on expected (like most woman) it would happen in that first month! Well here is how it really turned out, One month turned into 2 which lead to 4 then here comes 7 and then 9 and more... and those months are hard, the constant disappointment, the fear that grips you and keeps you awake at night all the "what ifs" go through your mind day after day, when you are growing up you never think oh that's going to be me "the one who cant have kids" or "that will take almost a year or more to have them" and it had started to become my life...Disappointment was evident and i didn't know how to make it less of a big deal.

Then in July Something cool happened, we had some visiting pastors come in from Mexico which I have known them for 7 years now and after the service they heard we were having some trouble getting pregnant so they laid hands on us and spoke life to our womb and spoke a baby into our life, that week we got pregnant! This is our little prayer baby, our miracle that was spoke to us, for us! For all those times people said to me "Gods time is perfect time" and I hated it then, it truly is the truth, and i am so thankful we get this blessing.

So we are happy to announce that we are pregnant and are 7 weeks and the baby is a size of a blueberry right now, its heart is beating and getting stronger by the day, it gives me heartburn like no ones business and constant nausea, but I already love this blueberry more then I ever thought was possible and with that came a love for my husband that I haven't experience before, to watch him through this last year and now is amazing and the way he sees all of this, its perfect.

Dear Baby,
So out of all the millions of little blueberries out there I am proud I get to be your momma!

                                            How cool to know blueberry farmers with a
                                                        huge field for us to use!

These are some great websites about the babies size and growth, because if you are like me CM and inches dont mean a thing, but a blueberry and lemon, now that I can picture!!!

BabyCenter- baby size
Carolee Beckham


Nicole~

a little of everything

Nut Shell...

-Retail hours= brutal...midnight just does not cut it!! lets face it I have a husband and I am involved in things and am missing out and i am just not that young anymore that I can stay out that late working!
-Summer is truly amazing and wonderful!
-I cry at the Olympics, it might have to do with how patriotic i am but still its ridiculous that I cry every story I heart about an USA athlete and watch them get their gold...tears!
-Vacations are truly amazing, Brittingham Family Vacation is always awesome.
-Traveling to Montana for the first time, even if it is just to cross the boarder to say "I have been there" The husband is truly great for putting up with my "ideas" which I seam to think they are always awesome until I actually stop and think them through....
-my  mother in law always makes me feel amazing when she says things like "look at this hair it is just perfect, its got to be your natural hair color" little does she know (until I told her) that my hair has not been its natural color since i was 15 and just that morning I had pulled out 2 grey hairs...! awesome I know!
-And there is no pictures because I am impatient and the Internet is slow not because I don't have a billion of them!

Happy Thursday!

Nicole

Monday Confessional...on Saturday

Oh the busyness we call LIFE.



I wake up I think "Ohh I should blog" and then the dog goes crazy and wants food (go figure), there are 4 miles (or more) to be ran staring me in the face, the husband is calling my name to drink coffee with him and read, there are books to be finished, oh and the umpteenth time to watch some FRIENDS episodes (love).... oh and maybe one day during the week I can actually lay out in the sun and get burned, BBQ and Friends to host and hang out with... I love being a host its probably one of my favorite things to do these days ,house projects, sewing projects that are just laying there half finished…with no energy to finish them because a few of the seams are crooked, grocery’s to be bought, and this is all on a Monday morning! J

Gladiator Sandals- Payless / Jeans- Target / Tank- Urban Outfitters / Glasses- Sunglass Hut

I feel like My alter ego super hero has come out and she is ready to save the world !!!!

Happy Saturday!

Nicole

3rd June 12th

What I Wore Wednesday.

It was our 2nd anniversary last night! So that meant flowers, cards, candy, gifts and a surprise date to the Portland City Grill...which happens to be my all time favorite and where we went on our 1st stage of our honeymoon. Then  we got to walk around downtown for a bit and finished the night with a little Starbucks! Pure BLISS for this girl!
I got this little shirt on a whim at a thrift store- so glad I did
Pants - Forever 21
Jacket and Shoes- Target
Belt- Urban outfitters

My Husband, best friend-
What a whirl wind the last few years have been, we meet, dated, fell in love, planned a wedding, got married, bought a house, got a dog, quite jobs, started new adventures and have grown everyday in love and friendship. No one knows me like you, no one understands me like you do. And all I want to do for the next 60 + years is get to know you better, to be your very best friend the love of your lifetime and stay deeply, passionately in love with each other!
Thank you for the last 2 years you have given me, although sometimes challenging and crazy i wouldn't trade them for anything ! I am more in love with you then ever.  And know that only greatness and passion lie ahead of us!

Forever yours,

Nicole Renee


I am linked up with:
the pleated poppy
And
rolleduppretty

Tags.

A new outfit!

These "new pieces" are few and far between these days...but I have been saving this skirt for almost 3 months...it was a birthday find back in Feb. at Nordstrom's (not on sale of course because it was the up coming fashion for the season)BUT too cute to say no! And deep down every girl wants to look like she is in a school uniform at least once in her life...but not the brittany spears look... and if you know Oregon wait the entire Northwest weather you know that maybe even in June you wont be able to wear a skirt...but it finally was nice so I broke this out, took OFF THE TAG what a great sound that is, of a tag ripping off and paired it with my new to me boat wood shoes and headed out to a graduation with Husband.

Boyfriend Blazer- Forever 21 / Chambray Shirt- H&M / Skirt - Free Hug / Shoes- Miz Mooz

I was sick for the first 2 Days of this week, so this my or may not have been the only outfit I got in this entire week!! No judging...The yoga pants happen to be a great friend when you feel like you are dying and if anyone touches your skin you will punch them in the the face, and your lower back has a 50 ton elephant on it. But this weekend is a different story, I have to dress up everyday my little brother is graduating for High School (crazy) and i have a ton of family and social gatherings to attend. Happy super late Friday night or Saturday Morning.!!!

Nicole

Its Happened.

One of Those people.


I am not sure I know when it happened or where it was (actually I do). Growing up I never thought it would happen to me, my mom was and so was my sister but I held out, I dare to say stuck my nose up or wrinkled my nose in disgust.
But I became....
a dog person....I know its weird and it happened so fast and now I am the girl that goes into dog stores while on vacation and visits with other dog owners and asks questions and talks to their dogs, I look for cute stickers that say but i would not put on my car  "I love my hound". I talk to my dog and love her and cant imagine our little home with out our big hound in it.

Anyways I thought I would just share that today and let every one know that "that's me, Im the girl that is the crazy dog lover, who may be a little on the weird side because I talk to my Hound and cuddle with her, I know my friends think I have gone off the deep end, but that's okay because I think I am better off now because of it"

It doesn't make me look any less crazy or of a "dog person" , I know for us to invite a few of our close friends who have dogs over to play..yep i know you are smiling and shaking your head and thinking ohh boy!! its okay, I am too.

Well here's to you today: (i say this all the time and I imagine I have a glass of sparkling cider -my favorite.

and i am toasting to you guys like at a wedding, and now you are imagining it as well, your welcome)

may it be filled with love, happiness and lots of smiles


 

The Hound dog invite:

This invitation card generated with Smilebox This invitation card generated with Smilebox Nicole

Finding me.

Coming out of Retirement...

Its hard stuff not working, having free time all to myself, to do what I want and i have loved every second of it! I know its been a little over a month since I have been a blogger (I don't see myself as a blogger but more of a journalese of my day to day life) But I am back and back with a new found perspective on life!

These last 2 months have been an eye opener, soul searching, finding Nicole again, finding the passion and love for life. And I am happy to say that I am here and that i found it. And I know most people don't just get to stop working so I am so grateful for Husband who has been supportive and my biggest fan and has allowed me this time to figure things out, without him i am not sure where I would be.
Thank you for letting me not work and take these last 2 months to have fun you are truly amazing!!

Here is a glimpse into the last few months of what may seem like randomness but to me it was therapy, it was what I needed.

Welcome to the world sweet Addison. you will be forever loved by all your aunties!!

The 4 of us!! my best friends.

My brothers last high School baseball game!

Aunt Kali and Addison

My best little friend for the day!!

How could you not be happy around these smiles??!!

I have filled my days with friends, babies, kids,baseball, beach trips, girl time with my 3 best friends and fun. My beautiful and sweet friend Elaine has played a huge part in my life I am continually amazed that God knows who we need and when we need them (I shouldn't be surprised since He does this all the time and He is good like that)  I am officially back looking for a job and still working on photography. We are headed to the beach this next weekend with friends (the first time we will go on vacation with friends) my little brother is graduating along with our adopted son Dawson :) we have some good stuff coming up and I am thrilled to be a part of it!

Happy Monday!

Nicole