Our Journey to get here has been a crazy one, we really (I mean me), am a planner, I have it all worked out in my head how its going to be and when its going to happen. So we started on this "lets have a baby train" and I full on expected (like most woman) it would happen in that first month! Well here is how it really turned out, One month turned into 2 which lead to 4 then here comes 7 and then 9 and more... and those months are hard, the constant disappointment, the fear that grips you and keeps you awake at night all the "what ifs" go through your mind day after day, when you are growing up you never think oh that's going to be me "the one who cant have kids" or "that will take almost a year or more to have them" and it had started to become my life...Disappointment was evident and i didn't know how to make it less of a big deal.
Then in July Something cool happened, we had some visiting pastors come in from Mexico which I have known them for 7 years now and after the service they heard we were having some trouble getting pregnant so they laid hands on us and spoke life to our womb and spoke a baby into our life, that week we got pregnant! This is our little prayer baby, our miracle that was spoke to us, for us! For all those times people said to me "Gods time is perfect time" and I hated it then, it truly is the truth, and i am so thankful we get this blessing.
So we are happy to announce that we are pregnant and are 7 weeks and the baby is a size of a blueberry right now, its heart is beating and getting stronger by the day, it gives me heartburn like no ones business and constant nausea, but I already love this blueberry more then I ever thought was possible and with that came a love for my husband that I haven't experience before, to watch him through this last year and now is amazing and the way he sees all of this, its perfect.
So out of all the millions of little blueberries out there I am proud I get to be your momma!