Awesome & Awkward

What do you get when you mix a bright orange shirt and a pregnant girl.....

Orangesicle. :)


We hit 10 weeks today, well okay actually it was yesterday and the baby is the size of a kumquat ,embarrassing enough I had not a clue what that was, so google came in handy.  Apparently it is a fruit and i hear its good! Next step going and finding one!!!!

Here is a Kumquat in case you have never seen one like me! 

Awkward:
-how easily I can cry at a drop of a hat, and literally if a hat drops I might cry.
-Gagging in bi mart today when I walked passed the canned chili isle....
-Gagging while I read about foods I should be eating while prego
-Dry heaving every time I open my fridge.GROSS
-ordering an all meet omelet and still needing and wanting more sausage after! Its really weird and I feel like a giant T-Rex yelling "wheres my meat??"
-falling asleep on the couch, the bed, actually anywhere and sleeping for multiple hours at a time and still needing to go to bed at 9pm.
-run through Isles because I HAVE TO GET OUT OF THERE while grocery shopping.....ugg so gross!!!


Awesome:
-The Office, although I have seen every episode I still laugh out loud every time.
-my new decorated living room that is now cozy, warm and inviting!
-knowing that in 8 short weeks I get to find out if its a boy or a girl.
-Watching The Husband learn and read books about the baby with me and laugh together at my reaction to what is going to happen in 6 short months.(im a little freaked)
-Maternity pants....they are truly an amazing invention, I have only worn them once because I feel a little ashamed to have them on, but it is so nice not squeezing into jeans that are snug and uncomfortable!!!!
-Wearing my boots and scarf the the other day, hello FALL!!!!

Happy Thursday, may your days be a little less awkward then mine !!!

Love Nicole and the baby!

Toe injury of 2012

Fruit Make Up My Weeks.

Its a fun little tradition we have of taking pictures of how big the baby is compared to fruit. As stated in previous blogs I cant visually see 2 1/2 cm big or half an inch but I can tell you how big a raspberry and Grapes are.

I had to look up (google is my best friend most days)for how big other pregnant people are at 8 weeks, because i feel like I am showing already and popping out and its awkward and I don't like showing it off yet. I feel like I am trying to be that "pregnant woman" so i don't fit my clothes much anymore, pants are all getting a little tighter and my shirts...well those look terrible on me. I luckily have an amazing mom who keeps getting me bigger shirts to wear and bring them over on a daily basis and friends that loan me the next size up in jeans, and this amazing invention of a belly band to keep my unbuttoned pants up... yes some days I am that girl with my zipper down and button undone on purpose! My yoga pants and socks have never felt soooo good i actually dream about wearing them all day and to all events. My "I have had for  7 years skinny jeans"....gone, I wore those for the last time probably in my life as my hips are expanding a little now....my body here i come.

you may notice my big bandage on my toe in the next picture, I like to refer to it as the toe injury of 2012. Long story short, I got onto the escalator at work, someone called my name I spun around and went to just walk back off the escalator (the wrong way) caught my toe in the next coming step, and boy those things are sharp and painful, I was in instant pain, my toe was cut open in multiple places, blood all over the sales floor, I had an er trip and stitches, along with a tetanus shot that hurt like a hole in the head, they starved me for 6 1.2 hours and i had no water or couldn't go to the bathroom, i was the pregnant crying woman in the back of the er where they forgot about me and finally when a nurse came in I broke down and asked for them to just let me go home I didn't care I was bleeding everywhere but I was starving. He grabbed me some food from a party there were having and water and fixed me up, at this point my numbing meds wore off and i could feel everything he was doing but I didn't care i wanted to go home, I ended up slightly fracturing the inside of my foot and limped around for weeks!!! Lame I know! Brutal to be a gimp and in pain for weeks and walk around with a giant toe! I was a big hit with the little kids and dogs, they just wanted my bandage!

                                                                          8 weeks
                           Jacket & shorts- F21, Shirt & Shoes- Target

                                                                          9 Weeks
                                 Pants- Silvers, Scarf- Gifted, Shirt- Target

 The Baby at 8 weeks, its looking (facing) left and if you look real close you can see little ears and cheeks and facial features. Husband swears its a boy and says he can tell from the picture, we went in thinking i was almost at 9 weeks and found out I was only really 8weeks and 1 day, so not really but kind of had to redo week 9 and that was a big bummer. But the baby is healthy with a strong heartbeat and this mamma cant wait to see more picture of him/her. As soon as they turned the speakers up laying there on the bed watching the screen not sure what to really expect since the only time I see this scenario is on TV or movies, and that heartbeat that sounds like a washing machine came on it took my breath away....tears pooled out of my eyes and my heart felt like a mom for the first time in my life. I feel in love with this baby and I know I have so much more to experience and hear and see and a new love but if its anything like what I felt hearing my baby's heart I am in for the time of my life. I got to watch my husband see his first child on that screen and it was just this amazing overwhelming experience and i am so honored to get to do this with him.

                                                   My baby hound dog! Love this girl.

We are headed into week 10 I will try to take more outfit pictures that is if I get out of my yoga pants!! NO promises!

Nicole

7 Weeks.

Sweet Blueberry.

Our Journey to get here has been a crazy one, we really (I mean me), am a planner, I have it all worked out in my head how its going to be and when its going to happen. So we started on this "lets have a baby train" and I full on expected (like most woman) it would happen in that first month! Well here is how it really turned out, One month turned into 2 which lead to 4 then here comes 7 and then 9 and more... and those months are hard, the constant disappointment, the fear that grips you and keeps you awake at night all the "what ifs" go through your mind day after day, when you are growing up you never think oh that's going to be me "the one who cant have kids" or "that will take almost a year or more to have them" and it had started to become my life...Disappointment was evident and i didn't know how to make it less of a big deal.

Then in July Something cool happened, we had some visiting pastors come in from Mexico which I have known them for 7 years now and after the service they heard we were having some trouble getting pregnant so they laid hands on us and spoke life to our womb and spoke a baby into our life, that week we got pregnant! This is our little prayer baby, our miracle that was spoke to us, for us! For all those times people said to me "Gods time is perfect time" and I hated it then, it truly is the truth, and i am so thankful we get this blessing.

So we are happy to announce that we are pregnant and are 7 weeks and the baby is a size of a blueberry right now, its heart is beating and getting stronger by the day, it gives me heartburn like no ones business and constant nausea, but I already love this blueberry more then I ever thought was possible and with that came a love for my husband that I haven't experience before, to watch him through this last year and now is amazing and the way he sees all of this, its perfect.

Dear Baby,
So out of all the millions of little blueberries out there I am proud I get to be your momma!

                                            How cool to know blueberry farmers with a
                                                        huge field for us to use!

These are some great websites about the babies size and growth, because if you are like me CM and inches dont mean a thing, but a blueberry and lemon, now that I can picture!!!

BabyCenter- baby size
Carolee Beckham


Nicole~

a little of everything

Nut Shell...

-Retail hours= brutal...midnight just does not cut it!! lets face it I have a husband and I am involved in things and am missing out and i am just not that young anymore that I can stay out that late working!
-Summer is truly amazing and wonderful!
-I cry at the Olympics, it might have to do with how patriotic i am but still its ridiculous that I cry every story I heart about an USA athlete and watch them get their gold...tears!
-Vacations are truly amazing, Brittingham Family Vacation is always awesome.
-Traveling to Montana for the first time, even if it is just to cross the boarder to say "I have been there" The husband is truly great for putting up with my "ideas" which I seam to think they are always awesome until I actually stop and think them through....
-my  mother in law always makes me feel amazing when she says things like "look at this hair it is just perfect, its got to be your natural hair color" little does she know (until I told her) that my hair has not been its natural color since i was 15 and just that morning I had pulled out 2 grey hairs...! awesome I know!
-And there is no pictures because I am impatient and the Internet is slow not because I don't have a billion of them!

Happy Thursday!

Nicole

Monday Confessional...on Saturday

Oh the busyness we call LIFE.



I wake up I think "Ohh I should blog" and then the dog goes crazy and wants food (go figure), there are 4 miles (or more) to be ran staring me in the face, the husband is calling my name to drink coffee with him and read, there are books to be finished, oh and the umpteenth time to watch some FRIENDS episodes (love).... oh and maybe one day during the week I can actually lay out in the sun and get burned, BBQ and Friends to host and hang out with... I love being a host its probably one of my favorite things to do these days ,house projects, sewing projects that are just laying there half finished…with no energy to finish them because a few of the seams are crooked, grocery’s to be bought, and this is all on a Monday morning! J

Gladiator Sandals- Payless / Jeans- Target / Tank- Urban Outfitters / Glasses- Sunglass Hut

I feel like My alter ego super hero has come out and she is ready to save the world !!!!

Happy Saturday!

Nicole

3rd June 12th

What I Wore Wednesday.

It was our 2nd anniversary last night! So that meant flowers, cards, candy, gifts and a surprise date to the Portland City Grill...which happens to be my all time favorite and where we went on our 1st stage of our honeymoon. Then  we got to walk around downtown for a bit and finished the night with a little Starbucks! Pure BLISS for this girl!
I got this little shirt on a whim at a thrift store- so glad I did
Pants - Forever 21
Jacket and Shoes- Target
Belt- Urban outfitters

My Husband, best friend-
What a whirl wind the last few years have been, we meet, dated, fell in love, planned a wedding, got married, bought a house, got a dog, quite jobs, started new adventures and have grown everyday in love and friendship. No one knows me like you, no one understands me like you do. And all I want to do for the next 60 + years is get to know you better, to be your very best friend the love of your lifetime and stay deeply, passionately in love with each other!
Thank you for the last 2 years you have given me, although sometimes challenging and crazy i wouldn't trade them for anything ! I am more in love with you then ever.  And know that only greatness and passion lie ahead of us!

Forever yours,

Nicole Renee


I am linked up with:
the pleated poppy
And
rolleduppretty

Tags.

A new outfit!

These "new pieces" are few and far between these days...but I have been saving this skirt for almost 3 months...it was a birthday find back in Feb. at Nordstrom's (not on sale of course because it was the up coming fashion for the season)BUT too cute to say no! And deep down every girl wants to look like she is in a school uniform at least once in her life...but not the brittany spears look... and if you know Oregon wait the entire Northwest weather you know that maybe even in June you wont be able to wear a skirt...but it finally was nice so I broke this out, took OFF THE TAG what a great sound that is, of a tag ripping off and paired it with my new to me boat wood shoes and headed out to a graduation with Husband.

Boyfriend Blazer- Forever 21 / Chambray Shirt- H&M / Skirt - Free Hug / Shoes- Miz Mooz

I was sick for the first 2 Days of this week, so this my or may not have been the only outfit I got in this entire week!! No judging...The yoga pants happen to be a great friend when you feel like you are dying and if anyone touches your skin you will punch them in the the face, and your lower back has a 50 ton elephant on it. But this weekend is a different story, I have to dress up everyday my little brother is graduating for High School (crazy) and i have a ton of family and social gatherings to attend. Happy super late Friday night or Saturday Morning.!!!

Nicole